Disappointed

Oh God don’t let ‘em know

Don’t let them see that I am cracking

The fractures deeps beneath the surface

I wouldn’t want ‘em to be worried about me

You think they’d ever know

You think they’d notice if I broke down

If I just slid into the background

Let the darkness and the shadows wrap around

Oh do you think that they’d come looking for me

Oh if I finally went and disappeared

I don’t even know if they could dive down this deep

And who’d have ever thought that I could end up here

I’m sorry mother, father if I disappointed

Oh God don’t let me know

Don’t ever tell me what you prayed for

When you knew you would have a daughter

Don’t want to know how far I’ve strayed from what you wanted for her

So am I really here

Is this what dreams are really made of

‘Cause if it’s true that’s pretty fucked up

Thought dreams would make you feel alive and give a purpose

So why am I heartsick, worthless

Oh do you think that they’d come looking for me

Oh if I finally went and disappeared

I don’t even know if they could dive down this deep

And who’d have ever thought that I could end up here

I’m sorry mother, father if I disappointed

I’m alright

I try to tell myself most nights

But when it comes out of my mouth

I know I’m lying

I’m just lying

Oh do you think that they’d come looking for me

Oh if I finally went and disappeared

I don’t even know if they could dive down this deep

And who’d have ever thought that I could end up here

Oh do you think that they’d come looking for me

Oh if I finally went and disappeared

I don’t even know if they could dive down this deep

And who’d have ever thought that I could end up here

I’m sorry everybody if I disappointed